Creative Writing

Someday...

And then it hit me
You're no longer with me
My life was always so complete with you around
But now, it never will be

Just a few months ago
You celebrated your life in different ways
No one could have ever expected
That you weren't going to stay

It hit us all like a bullet
Hard and fast
We've always believed that your life
Was one that was meant to last

Instead you were taken
We watched you slowly slip away
But still the presence of you being here
Won't ever fade, tomorrow, in years, nor today

But even though its painful
Learning to live without you around
I know that you're better now
In Heaven, safe and sound

I'll never forget the things you've taught me
Or the things you've always done
To make life easier for those you love
To make everyone's life more fun

And so, with teary eyes, I say "good-bye"
Or more like, "until we meet again"
Even though I don't know how
Even where or when

Still it's something to look forward to
The only thought that will help me make it through
This hard, painful time
The thought of someday meeting you

-Kelci Fusae Harada-Mochizuki
30 April 2010

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What is a "best friend"? Is it really just meant to be one, single person? Or can there be more then one...more like a group of friends? To most people, I'm sure a best friend can only be one person...the friend you share the most with; your likes, your dislikes, your hobbies, favorite foods, favorite type of music...just to name a few.

I guess that could be true but, what if you share those same things with more then just one of your friends? Are you only supposed to choose one to call your "best" friend?
Personally, I believe that a best friend can be just one friend but it can also be more than one person. Here's my definition...

A Best Friend...is a person who will stay with you, even when the rest of the world has given up on you. A best friend will never question why the two of you are friends and will fight with you through the worst of storms. They are your shoulder to cry on, the ear that will listen, the arms that will always have a hug waiting for you. A best friend will never quit on you, even if you feel like you want to give up. Even if you turn them away, they'll never leave you; they'll give you your space and time but, they'll always be there, watching over you no matter what. And when you need them, they'll be by your side in a heartbeat, without question. They'll love you unconditionally, like a member of your family and ask for nothing in return.

Wow, a best friend...sure sounds nice...
Will you ever be mine again...?

And so...

...the healing begins. Well, not really..
Yes, my grandma's funeral is over and done with (it was very beautiful, by the way). Yes, it's almost been a month since she passed away.
But...the empitness...the denial...the sadness just won't go away. It's still so hard to believe that she's no longer here. Even when we go to her house...her things were all left untouched...her purse sat in the same spot it's always been...her sleep clothes were left lying on her empty bed...nothing has changed...even her presence is still felt in the living room...in the kitchen...in the yard...everywhere...
This overwhelming emotion...this sadness..this pain...it makes it so hard to function...so hard to sleep, with the fear of dreaming of her and waking up crying...........

You know how...when you lose something special...you kind of feel lost until you find it again?
I know the feeling...except..the special thing that I lost..is a person...and unfortunately...this person can't be found again...

My grandma...the one who battled cancer so strongly for 3 long years...has finally come to rest...she passed away on Wednesday, March 24, 2010...she died in her sleep...and I wasn't there...
It's so hard now..to picture life without my grandma here...so hard to function...
It's a lost feeling...that I'll never get used to......












To be continued......